Easier

I'm amazed at how everyday it's starts to get easier not to think about you. I've come to accept that this process is going to be a long and hard one but I'm taking baby steps. I can't just expect myself to get over you so quickly, and you can't expect it either. Please have patience with me.
There might be chance that I never will get over you and still hold that regret of letting you go till I'm a wrinkly old Filipino lady with saggy boobs with two un-matched slippers. But I believe that there is a bigger chance of me being able to let go and move forward with my life; moving onto new and better things. But lately, I don't seem to think about you as much I have before. Each week I wake up happier, more composed, less of a wreck, and more at ease with how my life is going. I'm getting to that place where I'm content and even happy with my life even if you aren't in it. The thought of seeing you is become less and less appealing in my mind (which surprised even me).

The only thing that still angers me is that after everything you said "I would still really love to be your grad date. I want to keep that promise I made to you and live up to my word."
Thats great that you want to do that but you haven't kept any of the other, more important, ones. Why would you want to try to keep this silly promise? You think you're more honorable if you keep this promise? It's quite the opposite. You can't rationalize with yourself that if you keep this promise everything will be all good. You broke the most important promises you said you would keep. I'm may be brokenhearted but I'm not ignorant nor am I a fool. I may be stupid for but I'm not stupid. I know I'm the one that made you promise me, but things change. Maybe if I made you promise to be with me -we would still be. But hey, everythings in the past now right?

I'm just letting you know that whenever you might need me down the road-I won't be here for you. The moment you told me that you were over me, is the moment you pushed me out of your life. I know for the people that read this must be getting tired or irritated about me writing about it. But it's just not that easy for me. I need a while to recouperate and get my heart back into one piece. But just as I wrote earlier, it is getting easier and easier. I know that soon- I'll be happy.