Change

I can't believe how fast this summer went by. It seriously felt like one month instead of two, but I'm glad to be starting something new in September. Personally, I love change. Maybe it's because I'm a gemini and my mind seems to never settle on one thing for long periods of time. My environment always has to be changing other wise I just get bored. I was so glad when high school ended, not that it wasn't great. BUT it was just the same thing, the same people, the same classes, the same teachers, the same old routine EVERY SINGLE DAY. It was suffocating me. I'm pretty excited about going to university in September. It's a whole new THING for me to disect, mentally digest, and just something NEW for me to experience. I love starting from the bottom and working my way up. Although, I gotta admit the thought of everything makes me nervous. I probably will get lost on the first day because I'm so noob. Other than that I'm pretty stoked to meet new people and learn things I'm genuinely interested in. I'm actually pretty stoked for my philosophy class!! I have a feeling it's going to be a dope year.
Someone was telling me today that this year was going to be a year of change, and I'm cool with that. It's only been less than two months since I've been out of highschool but I already feel so changed. It's weird to know that I'm a different person from when I graduated in June. I don't know exactly what in me changed but I do feel different. Especially when I came back from Vegas everything just seemed....different. It was actually pretty scary. The fact that some things just didn't appeal to me anymore and how my perspective on things completely changed direction. I realized new goals of mine which I want to accomplish. And this whole summer just got me back on to chasing my dreams again. For a while I just gave up. I mean I didn't physically give up. But unconsciously I did. I stopped trying to accomplish the little things that would lead me to accomplish the "big thing". I stopped dreaming. That's the one thing I don't ever want to stop doing.
I'm inspired again. I'm driven again. I'm determined again.
It feels like a part of me that I treasured most was lost and has now resurfaced. It's not over yet...but thanks summer'09. It's been a crazy ass ride!