Busy X 23

SO many things to do, and I feel like I can't possibly do them all. I have three text next week and I haven't even looked at any of the material, I still need to desperately find a decent job, pay for my driving lessons, somehow pay for sickstylz costume, get ready for my driving test, finish all this homework, DANCE DANCE DANCE ( which I haven't been doing enough of lately), and just get over everything I need to get over. My cousins wedding is on Saturday and I didn't even find out until the week before. I have the For the Love of It youth audition on sunday which gives me less time to study for bio and math.

Erghh, I'm so stressed. But I need to just get everything done one at a time. I've barely been practicing dance, and I've barely bgirled since the summer. I remember being so crazy about bboying but somehow that inpiration/passion is lost to me now. I really can't comprehend it. Maybe it's because improving just gets so much harder as you get deeper into the game. I remember when I first started I accelerated fast. My improvement level was really high and that gave me the drive to keep going. Now that it's getting harder and harder to improve my drive has gone downhill, and I know it should be going up. It's like I'm hitting a brick wall or I'm plateauing. I haven't been practicing at all lately, at least not properly. I really need to start practicing again. I really need some inspiration. Youtube can only be used to a certain extent until you realize, damn I really need to start seeing these battles in real life. I wish I can just not go to school after highschool and just dance and work. But I know it's not the right thing, at least not for me. I need to know I have security in case trying out dance as a career doesn't work out for me. During the summer it's my goal to at least get to travel outside of Vancouver to see some battles and train in different environments. I just seriously need a job right now so I can fund these goals of mine!!!!!!! No more being lazy X 23