I hate you.

I hate you.
I've never said that about anyone, and I can't believe it's you of all people. How could you do that? You don't remember? That's bull. I don't deserve this.
Honestly why is this happening to me? I haven't done anything but the right thing lately. At your party I could have easily done all the things that I wanted to do, but no I did the right things. I respected EVERYONE. And yet all of this shit happens? It doesn't make sense. All of this still doesn't make sense to me. And again I'm at square one. I don't think you understand how much you fucked me over. You know, I was almost there, I was almost fucken there. But no you say all these things, you DO all these things and you expect me to treat it as if it was NOTHING because you were drunk?! Man, fuck you.
I honestly don't believe what you said to me on the phone. But that's just me. You might be telling the truth, but what you said to me just doesn't make any fucking sense. And you contradicted what you said..twice! I'm done with this bullshit.

Don't talk to me until you've gotten yourself figured out. Because you clearly need to do that.