Good-Bye Social Life

1.)SCHOOL
2.)STUDY
3.)DANCE
4.)REST
5.)REPEAT

For now I gotta say byebye to my social life. I've been selfish the past year, instead of practicing or studying like I should have been I partied instead. It's easy to throw away responsibility like I did and focus on the things that were easy. But because I haven't been challenging myself I haven't improved, it's like I've been stuck in this spot- plateauing. And now this habit of ignoring my responsibilities just because they are difficult is in my system. I haven't been dedicated at all lately in anything I've been doing. I've been half-assing everything and I'm really disappointed in myself. I need to re-learn the meaning of self-discipline and like Marc said in sickstylz practice today- I need to start being a leader. No more half-assing during practice or school. I just came home from Worlds practice and it's like everyone was so motivated and driven that it inspired me. We were all working together so dilligently towards a common goal and it felt so refreshing. So I've had my fun partying but now it's time to return to my old habits. I remember when I first started dancing I always said no to parties that were on Friday nights because I didn't have a doubt in my mind that I wanted to go dance instead.
I never went out on Saturdays because I always went to go practice at bonsor. I finished my homework early on Sundays or did it the night before so I could go take class at Harbour the next day. During recess and lunch at school I would put on my iPod and run over all the routines in my head. I would fall asleep at night listening to breakbeats and thinking of sets. I breathed dance and I miss that. I miss the feeling and the satisfaction of getting things done and doing something worth my time. I miss the feeling of working hard. Sure it was easy doing nothing and going to parties but now I ask myself what did I accomplish in that time? That time where I could have been practicing, could have been improving, or could have been achieving something.
It's time for me to immerse myself in dance again. I'm pumped and ready.