Reminisce

I somehow ended up reading some of my old blogs today about a certain someone and I suddenly got that nostalgic feeling. It kinda made me depressed seeing how most of my blogs about him were about hurting or getting my heartbroken. I look back on everything now and I'm quite proud of how I handled the situation we were both in. It goes to show just how much I cared for him- which scares me. I put everything I had- my heart, my soul, blood, sweat,tears; literally my all into just trying to put a smile on his face. I think that much emotion and the intensity level of all those emotions were just too much for me. It was like I just overloaded with all these feelings and I didn't know what to do with them. Realizing now that I was FIFTEEN is unreal. I was an LG fo sho! And LG's shouldn't be trusted with those kinds of intense emotions. Part of the reason why I think we didn't work out. Too young, immature, and selfish.
But it's cool now. I mean it took a hella long time but I'm over it. I'm really thankful that I got to experience being in love because there are some people out there that never get to. I've learned from all the stupid shit I've done in the past and because of it I know that I'm a stronger person.

Anyways I'm leaving for Vegas in A DAY!!!!!!!! (Not counting today though) I'm excited to leave all this bullshit behind that I'm currently involved in. I honestly DESPISE being the stuck in the middle. I'm tired of hearing all of your shit. I've said it a million times before just LET IT GO. She's not good for you. But I'm done with trying to convince you. I tired of telling you whats best. You obviously haven't been listening if every single time you just turn your back on me welcome her with open arms. You've fucked around with me heart enough times. I'm sorry but if she's going to be in your life - I'm out. I'm leaving for a week. You know when I get back. If you've figured your shit out, give me a call. If not - Peace out.